wolfsbride

Looking back over the past year, there were times when I drove myself to tears over the whole writing issue. In fact, some days I became so depressed about the whole thing, I was tempted to give up all together. This is certainly not conducive to developing a writing habit.

As mentioned, I obviously bit off more than I could chew with the write something every day mandate. Writing used to be a joy to me, not a chore and I very much wish to return to those simple days. Clearly though, I was going about it the wrong way.

The difficulty lies is treading the fine line between slavish obedience and total laziness. I don't want to make myself miserable by forcing myself to write but neither do I want to succumb to never doing anything. For myself, I know that if I wait until I feel like writing, nothing will ever get done.

And so I've decided to allow myself some flexibility. I'll still attempt to write something daily, however, I'm giving myself permission to only need to post something at least once a month. In this way I hope to alleviate some of the panic and stress I got overwhelmed with when facing the daily posting deadline.

If things go well, I may change this to posting once a week. However, given the difficulty I have with putting words to paper in general, I think at this point and time, it's more important to become comfortable with writing itself rather than output.

We'll see how it goes.

Missed my month end report as so much else was going on. Hardly anything this month. Haven't even felt like I had the brain power to think scribbly thoughts. Did make one decision though. As June is the mid point of the year, I decided it might be an idea to, instead of trying to come up with ideas constantly, look at some of the things I have done and pick one or two to work on further. We'll see how it goes.

Huh. Well what'd ya know? I wrote eight things for the month of March. Twelve if you count the multiple parts. That's more than I thought I'd written. Weird.

Still not approaching anything like consistency but hopefully that'll come.

I find I'm getting more ideas. Or at least more topics. It's like a pot slowly coming to a boil. Still haven't quite worked up the nerve to put things down yet it seems. And now with work starting to get busy, I'll probably be too exhausted to do much of anything.

We'll have to see how the dreaded month of April goes.

I'm beginning to think I have a complex. Managed to scribble about three paragraphs but that's it. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

P.S. Some of these moods are very wtfish. Like.. What the hell kinda mood is recumbent!??!?!

*goes to look it up*

Okay it means lying down. That's not a mood. That's a position. You know what? Since I'm posting this from bed, that's gonna be my mood. I am recumbent.

Sheesh.

Another month bites the dust. Let's hope March brings spring. I'm sick of being cold

Still not quite making my goal of writing every day. Have been pondering whether I should revise my original whatever and maybe scale it back to posting once a week. Especially since I will be going into a busy time with work. My fear is that the once a week thing will degenerate into not at all again. So I haven't yet decided.

Anyway....

( The Report )

Sigh. I give up.

Goodnight.