Day 77 - Later
Mar. 18th, 2009 11:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolfsbrideI'll do that later.
I'll go see so and so later.
We all do it. Procrastinate. Put things off until a better time. Until later.
What happens when later never comes?
My mother's friend went into the hospital a few days ago. Just to have some tests done because she was looking a bit jaundiced. Now, a few days later.... She's not expected to last the night.
I'm... shocked. And really really angry. I just want to smash something. Having spent the last few years with doctors and in hospitals, there's a small part of me that wonders if she would have been better off not having gone in. Patients seem to be the least of a hospital's worries these days.
I don't really know what to do with this. Sure she was elderly but she was in good health and now.... She was like a second mother to me but life went on and I got busy and we drifted apart. I always felt bad that I never visited her more, called her more. But... You know... Later. I figured I had time.
And now I don't. And won't ever again.
I'll go see so and so later.
We all do it. Procrastinate. Put things off until a better time. Until later.
What happens when later never comes?
My mother's friend went into the hospital a few days ago. Just to have some tests done because she was looking a bit jaundiced. Now, a few days later.... She's not expected to last the night.
I'm... shocked. And really really angry. I just want to smash something. Having spent the last few years with doctors and in hospitals, there's a small part of me that wonders if she would have been better off not having gone in. Patients seem to be the least of a hospital's worries these days.
I don't really know what to do with this. Sure she was elderly but she was in good health and now.... She was like a second mother to me but life went on and I got busy and we drifted apart. I always felt bad that I never visited her more, called her more. But... You know... Later. I figured I had time.
And now I don't. And won't ever again.
